It can always be worse

Today has been one of those days.
Those days where you sit and ask the question

"anything else wanna go wrong?! I'm already down! "

The kids have been at each other's throats today and I do not mean that lightly. 
Throwing toys at heads,  screaming, kicking, hitting and body slamming.
Every five mins (no exaggeration) I am breaking up another fight. Sadly only one who's been in a good mood is the one year old.

The dog is scared of storms... my big beautiful German Shepard mix sissy is scared of storms! So badly she somehow ended up in the neighbors yard... and couldn't get back...

So I was thankful for the let up in the rain.
As im putting her leash on on the other side of the block shes freaking out and getting mud ALL over me... no I have no pictures lol.
Then as I go to put her in the towel in the car.  BOOM!!!! My big beautiful girl almost takes my hand of ripping away from fear.  Instant downpour.

I then get ahold of her again and get her to the car. .. BOOM!!!
lovely... she freaked and got mud all over my car.  My 3 week old, 2013 car.  Did I mention I have tan upholstery? ... GAH.

i get her to the house and she shakes all over the kitchen... and me.. like I wasn't muddy enough. ..

Ok done with my complaints. I have a reason for this.

Remember my first question?  Asking if anything else wants to go wrong? 

Why do we ask that question?!

Number one, this just makes us notice when more goes wrong! 

Number two, sure is it overwhelming that the kids have been fighting all day.  Sure its frustrating to have to go out in a storm for a dog and get all wet and muddy. Sure its frustrating that im gunna have to clean my car. But those are minor things.

At least I have kids to get overwhelmed with.
At least I am able to afford to have and protect my big beautiful wussy companion. Lol
And at least I have a car to get dirty going to get her.

Tomorrow will be better with the kids emotions and mine.

My girl will get a bath tonight and so will I and snuggling will calm her spirits.

And this weekend we will get my car cleaned.

It can always be worse. Someone else's bombs being dropped on them can be nuclear. 

Im thankful for the fact that mine can go away without any harm.

Might take a few deep breaths and counting to ten but im thankful.

Dont let your heart wander.

In the last two months I have seen a few people lose people that mean more than the world to them.
In the last few years I have lost a few people very important to me.
After each time of loss it is a normal thing to be refreshed that life can be gone in the blink of an eye and your loved ones can lose you or you lose them. But after a period of time the pain fades and we all jump back to normal and seem forget that fact...

Dont let your heart wander...

Dont let it wander from the love. Im not saying that in a you may stop loving kind of scenario. Im talking about not letting it wander to the point of not loving and living each day with your family and friends with the reassurance of that love.

I am one of those that do that... and after each death (some take longer to get over than others) I have that bounce back phase. Where I semi try to forget im order to stop the pain. Which pushes me to forget that sometimes life isn't as beautiful as I think it should be.

We shouldn't forget about those souls. We should celebrate what they have done for us.

When my best friend passed 5 years ago I was angry. Angry at him, angry at me and angry at everyone else. This was an incorrect action but its one of the steps to acceptance.  This I now know. I can now talk about him with great joy at great memories.  This is the correct action.

Yesterday when I found out about the death or another important person in my life, all those angry feelings came back. But today I am determined to not let her death be in vain. I refuse to harbor resentment or anger... I choose to rejoice in her LIFE. She had such a beautiful life.

I will not forget that even if ive told my kids 10 times in one day I love them 11 times wont hurt. That even if ive hugged and kissed my husband be for work already, one more for the road is ok. That patience and understanding even during a situation that I dont quite understand is important. 

I will not let my heart wander.
Don't let yours.