In 2013 the semicolon project started. Due to my 2007 suicide attempt and my friend Brian also being a victim of feeling like life wasnt withstandable a short time later, it was incredibly important to me to one day get a semicolon.
When 2016 hit and my life spiraled out of control I again found myself in that moment of feeling like life wasnt worth living. Thank God in that moment when it was do or die I thought of my children and the pain and blame I felt the day Brian ended his life and realized my children would feel that pain intensified by a million. That pushed me to get up, get out the door and get to the hospital before it was to late...
Over the last couple of years I have gone through ups and downs in my own emotions trying to hide from mistakes that haunt me and have to remind myself every single day that I am not what I have done. A dear friend told me a little while back that every story has a purpose... even if you can't see yet what it is, someday it will serve it's purpose.
Today I didnt just get the semicolon to include myself into a group of people showing the world a story hasnt ended . Today I got a semicolon with the words never give up to remind MYSELF that MY story hasn't ended.. it could have but I chose to continue writing it.
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