Birthday Blues

So... my itty bitty 4lb 11oz baby turns 2 in one week... and this momma has struggled with her inner self.

I turn 25 this year. In 16 days actually. And to most your probably laughing at me thinking "wow 25" but with a nearing 2 year old and right behind him a 1 year old this year is really hitting me.

It hit me a few weeks ago as I was thinking about throwing my husband a birthday party for his 25th a few months down the road that... some of my absolute favorite ppl in my life aren't here to spend mine with me...

Now should this have effected me like it did? No. I have a fabulous family, a wonderful husband and 2 beautiful baby boys to celebrate with me. But wheres the distraction from being another year older or that my nabies aren't babies they are toddlers?!? Lol

But today my week shy from being 2 year old came up to me and said "hold you?" And once I tucked him in my arms with his little farmer tanned arms around my neck he said "love you mommy." Then pulled back and grinned his cheesy grin. That cheesy grin that he wouldn't have if he wasnt almost 2.

Today held that moment. That one moment every mommy gets every once in a while to remind them its ok the babies grow up.

Thank you my ky-bear for making mommy happy today that time moves forward :)